i prefer the median wavelength -
but he continues in his extremes -
at once a tyrant and a lover -
i wonder whether i have found or lost -
with each pitch or frequency -
a greater me

break my bones

i wish you would throw that fist
instead of those words
so that, at least i could wear them -
be marked like cain
for whatever sin
calls for this punishment
that kill like poison,
buries me without a name.

need to be angry

i want to be angry
i want to chastise a man before reason claims me
i want the satisfaction of reclaiming myself
before becoming sad
i want to be angry
i need to be angry

supposed to be a woman

You agreed unknowingly –
A long time before the touch.

They never tell you

That defiance

Or curiousity

Or compassion

Equates consent –

Only punish you
For not acting like a woman

Only prohibit you
So that you act more like a woman

So when they venture
To impress upon your person

Any girl wonders
Like they blame her for;
Whether it is her fault.

escape

there exists a need to be confronted
by a vastness
a beauty
another world
that brings release
unshackles you

perhaps we were more exotic then
to each other
so there was more tolerance
and there was more appreciation

i long for that version of myself
but i am safe with the power of hindsight